First day of the year, the person I admire so much ignored me.
After that was a very nasty mold infestation which scared the hell out of me. Then, someone I’m beginning to like got in a relationship. Add to that, my back pains got worse and my head’s starting to act up too. I also gained a lot of weight over the holidays. The ‘pounds’ don’t really bother me, it’s the ‘inches’ that I’m really fussing about.
But all that is just tip of the iceberg.
Friday afternoon, I got a text message saying a friend passed away. I assumed it was a joke, I mean, it just can’t be real. So I ignored the text and continued studying for my exam. I was waiting for a text saying the first one wasn’t to be taken seriously, but it never came. I was hesitant to ask, I didn’t want to look stupid for falling for the joke. I read the message again and again, and the more I read, the more serious it started to sound. So I finally asked, and my fear got confirmed.
It has been exactly one month since I last saw her (it was her birthday), and until now, even after seeing it for myself, I’m still finding it so hard to believe. Wherever you are, I know you’re in a better place. But you still had so much to live for. Why :(
Last night, I couldn’t sleep. The realization that death is real, that it can happen to anyone, anytime, kept me awake, sad, and scared. It makes me want to tell everyone around me how thankful I am for everything they have done, whether they were aware of it or not. So if you’re reading this, thank you! Whether I’ve known you for years or just a day ago or I’ve never met you at all, the fact that you took the time to see what I have to say is enough for me to thank you for.
I’ve heard the saying “Life is short” so many times it doesn’t make sense anymore. Now, it does.
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